I made the decision to quit my job, something that everyone does, what's new about me doing it? It's not the decision I'm emphasizing on, nor the process, I'm here to focus on why we feel like quitting a job regardless of how beneficial it is to us. Read on to know what I've experienced and realised that goes into quitting.

There are two excruciatingly important steps that one discovers much later in life about why we took the chance and performed the action that we did, and here's how we run through them:

1) Your gut let's you know:

There will come a time when you'll just want to quit, it could be your job, a side hustle, a project that you're working on, a relationship or anything that you're currently working on. You'll try and explain to yourself that you're not happy as you expected yourself to be, you're not enjoying, this isn't what was in your mind when you first came in. But, the truth remains, your inner instinct knows, somehow, that you don't belong here anymore, and more importantly your gut gives you a strong feeling that you have a better purpose to serve that will satisfy you. It's highly common for most of us to quit during this phase, while highly unsure of why we're even doing so, but we end up quitting anyway.

2) Realising what is wrong and why it was/is bad for you:

In cases like these, which is mostly what happens, also what happened to me, but again not everyone has these insights. We have now quit our job and moved on and then we hear ourselves say, "If I had continued working there, I wouldn't have made it" or "If I had continued working there, I wouldn't be happy like I am today, I wouldn't feel the satisfaction and content that I feel today." 

These are just the top layers, the covers, the tip of the iceberg, because deep inside our conscience is where the real answer lies. Let me tell you my story from when I was working and I quit. I was working in a luxury automobile dealership as a sales consultant, that's right, my first job that lasted for 4 months. That's something people wouldn't give up on, because they'd love bragging about it. Honestly, I thought so too when I started my job and ended up repeating the same reasons mentioned above after quitting. The realisation hit me when I was working along with a startup and it was around five months into the startup and after I had actually quit my job. I didn't think of why I couldn't perform to my fullest or stay unhappy and leave back then, but come to this day, I understood that I didn't control the sale, every customer has been through the same path that I had just begun on, they only cared about how much money they'd have to pour out on the car, which was the decision of the dealership and the manager to make, I was merely a middleman passing on the pricing details from dealership to customer and the bargains the other way. I could convince my customers to take a test drive, explain every feature of the car, and when it came down to closing the deal, the only thing I could do was tell them that we care about them and the car and that we would give them better service compared to the competitive dealership. Lowering the price wasn't my decision to make. I explained it to myself that decision making grows proportionally with responsibility. My ability to take more risks, be more flexible and choose tasks with responsibility was restricted and that limitation wasn't letting me grow as the person I wanted to become. Even when you don't know why you quit, just wait it out, dig deep into yourself and you'll arrive at the reasoning to why you chose to do what you chose to do.

If you're a Sci-Fi movie fanatic or a nerd or a comic book multiverse fan, or even regularly keep up with the trend, you must be aware of the Star Trek and Star Wars movies screening in theatres near you. Our lives don't look like we're far away from living a life like shown in these movies. With NASA and people like Elon Musk at SpaceX we are getting closer to making the dream come true. As the Star Trek movies have always introduced it, "Space: The Final Frontier" will soon be ours for the taking. Is that where it ends? Like all those Sci-Fi movies are showing us that an intelligent life form drains the resources of a planet and moves on, are we gonna do the same to our Earth? I'd rather not get involved into paradoxical conspiracies here, instead state an observation I've so keenly let bloom in my head that I jumped to write this blog, only missing out on yelling, "Eureka". I realized that if we do start conquering space; planet after planet shall be thriving with civilizations of evolutionary generations of a once known primate called homo erectus. There won't be stopping us, for our greed will be as ever expanding as the universe itself. We will have lost all hope and purpose of finding the one true meaning of life that defined us and separated us from the rest of so-called ordinary life forms. We'll have to move faster than light itself or collapse within, because, to reach the calling of our collective destination, to conquer the final frontier, is to find ourselves and that lies beyond infinite space.

Yours peacefully
The Beyonder Within

Do you remember, that time as a kid when you first learned how to walk? Or how you first learned how to write? Neither do I, no one does. But, we have always relied on memories, we conceptualize transferring memory on a computer and live virtually forever. Then why can't we remember anything from our childhood, or as our youth as an elderly person. Our brain doesn't hold on to memories, but rather learns from the experience of it, processes the information and then we remember the experience of it, much like a computer that remembers how to carry a certain process or holds on to recent cache and bookmarks. Experiences are what keep us from repeating our mistakes, it is what keeps us curious to try out more experiences. We don't choose to and I believe we can't hold on to past memories, that explains how we move past sorrowful experiences like the passing away of a close friend or relative, or the enzymal rush of adventure sports. We do simply live in the present moment, but sometimes get carried away, and choose to not store the experience and instead let it haunt us over and over again like a faulty music player, and much like it we won't let go until we experience a sudden impact that get's us back on track. It explains why we look onwards and into artificial intelligence to be our saviors, for their storage of memories are reliable, unlike our natural carbon anatomy that leaves an undoubted experience at old age but a rustic memory to share.

Yours forgetfully
Amnesia

When I watched the news and heard stories of massacre and destruction caused by the same blood and bone that we're all fundamentally made of, I initially didn't understand the rage, where it came from or what exactly was the direction of it. All that was seen was discrimination in the name of a supreme power. Slowly, I got to thinking and got back to something at the base of physics, the Second Law of Thermodynamics. I saw the connection, that maybe they are just trying to increase the entropy of the universe, they saw it moving slowly, wanted to speed it up and took it upon themselves to cause the rapid change and distribution of energy. Although almost negligible but absolutely effective way to age the universe quicker. It was the only way they saw fit for doing so without losing any time in emotion while working for the cause most important to man, curiosity.

Yours destructively,
The terroriser.

12000... 12000 years ago was when the first temple was built in present day Turkey, and then, a few hundred years later, the largest temple in Cambodia, the remains of which can still be seen today. Ever since humans started worshipping, we’ve had some form of embodiment established in a sacred place where we go to feel enlightened, spiritual and afloat. The dedication towards that establishment of worship has been expressed by artistic carvings depicted all over our monuments, sometimes even entirely carved out of a single piece of rock. As man evolved, we started building communities with grey matter, which is now called a concrete jungle. Putting off urbanization can also mean postponing prosperity. And the way we fabricate our buildings has also evolved with our knowledge of material. Only time will tell if one day we 3D print our deities and the homes we live in.

Yours constructively,
The architect.

Do you believe we all have a purpose in life? I believe I do have one, but the question that remains is, do I have a choice to fulfil it? Now, it doesn't matter what the answer is, what matters is who decides our purpose. Do we get a chance at it or is it all part of a plan that we all negligibly contribute towards unknowningly? If we do have freedom to choose, why can't we control all? And if we don't, then who or what does have control? We exist as an entity based on a simple phenomenon of being able to comply. Comply to what or who you ask, but never have we asked how will any choice really affect a life and will it ever matter or has mattered in fact. We do understand that we possess the will to ask, but we know not how to find what we seek. We look into tangible matter, forgetting the beings we are, holding onto this unlimited potential that we're told is locked inside and a key called success be needed to unlock it. Then again when the end comes close, we just realise it was always in there, we were conditioned to believe the lock that was merely imaginary. This thought, such a powerful belief, unexpected possibilities can arise and anything is conquerable. We limit this thought, this entity titled spirit, consciousness, singularity and universal oneness from all the different possible ways of looking at the outcomes, to a mere three letter word.

Yours faithfully,
The greater beyond.

Perspective of reality is a fabric of space-time, which cannot be needled into or onto something, it doesn't come from anything, it just folds into itself. We're like ants on those threads of this fabric that just got on, all we can do is walk on the path alloted. We can't bend it, we can't choose whose line we'll cross, all we can choose is the pace of it and the direction of it. We could move forward and fast, we could stop for rest or move backward. We meet others on the entanglements of the pattern of this fabric and that's the simplest way I can explain life.